We have just entered 2016, and we normally begin a new year with new resolutions. Let’s face it, not all of us are disciplined enough to go through our resolutions for the new year. Why? Changing yourself comes with its own set of challenges, and it requires a high level of discipline to get the resolutions running and in place.
For the past 3 years, I have been going through a journey that I would say is close to a journey of depression. I’ve made plenty of mistakes in my life, so much that I believed I brought problems unto myself. My closest ones around me also agree that I was not wise enough… I happened to welcome problems, one after another. At the final quarter of 2015, I was given a very painful wake-up call. The friends that I held on to for strength told me that I needed to get my shit together. Excuse the language, but that was really the truth of my situation.
I fell deeper and deeper into depression since 3 years ago. I began to hate myself more and more by day during those years. I hated everything about me for 3 years. If it hadn’t been for those friends, I wouldn’t be writing and sharing my personal story with you.
When I was going through this rough spot, Noruyo.com was already formed. I didn’t have much to contribute because much of my time was spent on overcoming my depression. I would spend days trying to convince myself that I was worth it. Having a religion and a God to count on and share my problems to really helped a great deal.
It came to a point in my life where I kept telling myself this mantra:
There is a way for those with a will; and God for those who search the truth. Seek and you shall find, your brilliance within. — Noruyo
I had to keep telling myself that God has a plan for me. God has it all figured out for me. I just need to snap out of my perceived depression, and get the hell up.
And that was exactly what I did.
After my wedding in January 2015, I began working on myself. It was normal for me to put up a strong front — when I confided in those around me, they found it hard to believe me. My wedding made me realise how I did not want to keep going through the same thing over and over again.
There would be nights where I would just wake up and sit on the floor, crying. There would be days I would just cry out of the blue and only snap myself out of it when I heard the Adzan (Call to Prayer). There would be days where I spend long durations in the shower, just because I wanted to be alone. There would be times when I refused to pick up calls, or reply to texts. I suffered, and I didn’t know why.
I gathered all the strength I had, and kept meditating. In my faith, meditating is when we say praises to God. We recite His names over and over again, to bring peace to our hearts. Once your brain is focused on something, it will immediate block out anything that is not relevant to that.
I am grateful and truly thankful that God blessed me with a certain drive to break free from my depression, through business. Whenever I conduct my services and run the business, I would not even go through the depression. It wouldn’t even strike back. I soon realise that the business (aside prayers) was my personal outlet, to free myself from the terrible rut I was in.
In October 2015, I made a commitment to myself. I made a commitment to share my journey as I overcome this difficulty. The only way I know how is to show my love and support for everyone going through the same thing. I hope that you will find peace and solace in my sharings, because I want you to break free from your rut too.
Hence, I am calling on support from everyone out there. Interact with one another, and with the posts I share on this blog, and on Instagram. I have chosen Instagram as the social media of choice because it is more private, and you will be free to share your opinions. I will personally look through the comments and answer any relevant questions. I will be there for you, the way I know you will be for others around you.
In case you are wondering, Noruyo.com will be adding Word Arts back into our store so you’ll remain motivated throughout this journey with me. I’ll be selling them on this site, and on Etsy. The Etsy store will reopen in February — just in time for Valentine’s Day.
Babe, you are amazing.
You are wonderful.
You are a gift from God to the people around you.
You are the best thing that has happened to your family’s life.
You are worth it!